Heading into MYC this year, I had a lot on my mind. There were a number of struggles within my mind, that were corrupting and slowly the crumbling the foundations on which I live. I was in over my head, within numerous situations, but I wasn't about to stoop so low as to ask for some help; that just aint my style.
So there I was, getting into a car headed to Albury, with the location being a Christian Conference that I was "totally pumped for" yet, all that dwelt within me was this immense sense of bitterness, and resentment. Long story as to why, maybe another time.
You know, for far too long, I've just been putting on a happy face. Not anymore. On the Tuesday night, a huge weight was lifted upon my shoulders ... all the vices holding me back from total commitment to God were slowly cracking ... now, I'm not entirely free ... I have struggled post-MYC, won some battles, lost some too ... what sticks the most with me though, is that wherever I have gone, or whatever I have done, everything has gone back to John North's talks, and the image of that tree ... the tree that is our mind ...
In my quiet times, at Church, and even just talking with friends, God has been telling me the same thing, in different ways. "Be ready. Leave the World. Follow." That's what He says. And even in the secular society we live in, He has given me signs to adhere to this.
Well, God, you know what? I'm here, I'm ready, bring it on. Help get my evangelism on!
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